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陳玫珺!!!!!

你好o野!!! 你竟敢放我飛機啦!!!

 

人家興致勃勃约去玩..

你就..........

呃!!! 可恨...

 

爲什麽???

爲什麽你要給我希望???

 

我每天都在期待着那天的到來..

期待那時的我們會玩得很瘋狂..

想着我們五個罵來罵去; 有聊不完的話題..

五個傻婆會做一些白痴很匪夷所思的事情..

拍很多古靈精怪的照片..

拉拉雜雜地...

一段美好的旅程....

 

你是不是不爽我啊??

人家回去的時候你就偏偏不出來...

人家身在金寳的時候你就偏偏跟她們混在一起..

而且不止一次..

你到底想怎樣??? 玩野嗎???

 

想着想着...我們五個不曾一起去旅行過..

很多人會覺得我們去波德申是很無聊的地方..

可是對我來説..

地方重要嗎???

我只在乎我身邊的會是誰~~

 

 

所以陳玫珺...

我很生氣你啊~~~!!

Yay!! Finally.....

 

I watched 2012!! It's a very very nice movie. It's so incredible and make me so gan jeong when all those buildings collapse and many explosion~ Does it really come to the reality?? better dont..... I scare!!! Maybe some ppl will think it is so fake and like such kinda 'cartoon', but pls la... you wan those director how to make it to become real wo? He already very good in making those animation..appreciated la! This also a very sad movie, very very very sad. Lots of innocent ppl died because of someone's self-fishness. Some died in a horrible way.. especialy Gordon. so sad.... I'm not crying, that's bcoz my dad is beside me(Mom and sis watching MJ at the same time in another theater). haha! TAHAN je la~ but it does a good movie. Jackson(main character) is so yeng le~ haha! Love him! I wont watched the 2nd time, because I really cant stand for it.. (the way ppl of dying and how the earth come to the end.)

 

I watched Battleground preliminary 2!! Which i miss it on Saturday morning. I watched it on Youtube. Although the graphic is kinda.... blur, better than watched nothing! That preliminary really crazy!! Those teams in Team B really really crazy strong! Their dance is so cool. The most crazist team were Kartoon Network and Wakaka Fever! (fyi, Wakaka Fever is a group of Malay that had won before Champion!) This season was assemble many many champion teams, like kinda worried to my Elecoldxhot and Dancologist. ECX finally meets opponent.. I must confident on them!! They sure can make it best! (I'm going crazy again...)

 

I done my asgmnt...! i think~ haha. Err..although is not that good, I have tried my best la~ Every sem every asgment i have to say lots of appologize to my group members all because of my dumbness.. I really wanna give a hand but I scare I will trouble it. I juz do all I can.

 

My modem is alive!!! Haha....

 

Well.. Happy is over. Come to the other side. The sadness.....

 

I dont ever touch of my studies.. I'm having Pengajian Malaysia test on this week. It covers 8 chapters, excluded the 4 that had already tested in mid term 1, I dont even study 1 of the following chapters. Haiz.. die la this time. Have to rush up this few day, burning midnite oil.. (urgh..can dun wan ma??) Hey, it's tues!! dont burn oil then u burn urself!! Might having test on thurs...... 2 more days!!! ahhhh.......!! It's not 2012 anymore, is 2009!

 

The most ever hurts me was my laptop. It's totally dead. The whole thing damage. Not external but internal. I dunno whether was its hardward or its system make the whole thing damage. My keyboard is malfunction anymore, non of the button I can press to move the select bar to select anything. Only the power key can function, that's only on or off the machine. Now I realise Dell is that GOOD in service, because they ONLY serve those machines that under WARRANTY!! If ur warranty has expired, then I think u can go find for a new one or u can extend ur warranty. Because, Dell's machine only Dell's technicians know how to fix it. Though u bring to outside pc shop, those technicians also dunno how to fix it. Maybe there is exception, u dun wanna make it to bcum original machine. Mine? Wait for this coming weekend, a staff works at Dell shop in MV helps me to look the problems. If he also no idea of it, then i really have to get a new one. Happy?? no.. definately not. I just want back my old one.

 

URGH...... I HAVE NO LAPTOP TO USE IN KAMPAR!!! WHAT LIFE I GONNA HAVE???? WHERE I GET MY ENTERTAINMENT?????

keep on annoying housemate to borrow their laptop for me...hahaha!! haiz.... no music no life.

 

Ohya, i wanna notice about somthing............

my MOM got a FACEBOOK account!! hahahaha..... my sis had add her. When gonna be my turn??

hahaha....

yea.. I really had a bay day for today(14 nov 2009) i ever had for my whole life.

 

What happened on me?? cut my finger? (nah, is juz a small matter..) ; step on "something" or "something" falling from the top of the sky?? (maybe a little bit disgusting but it still not that bad if happened..)

 

I'm currently in KL.. I come all the way down from Kampar juz because i wanna watch the Battleground - the previous episod (preliminary 2). i bought friday night ticket instead of saturday morning ticket, it's because i thought the show was repeat on saturday morning 11am. I'm deperate to watch that because i had a friend was participate in the competition!! of coz not only that reason, coz i really crazy on that competition! ><"

 

(The story begin.......)

 

I sengaja set the alarm at 10am coz i am goin out after watching the battleground at 11am, so i can have time for me to prepare myself. I ajak BS to watch 2012 with me. Before that, he think to buy ticket online but unfortunately the GSC web site has gone down at this time and he cant buy it. So we forced to buy at the cinema ticket counter and for sure i know we will meet a very long queue.

 

Initially we decide to go Berjaya Timesquare, but we change to Mid Valley by car because it's raining at that moment, we cant take public tranport to BTS. When we reached Mid Valley we saw GSC signature is having quite a long queue then i think the "general" GSC sure will be full of people. When we go up by escalotor, i guess the queue sure will reached McD. Ahha! i'm half right! the Queue is reached the snacks counter passed by the McD. Imagine it! BS suggest to watch at Signature, but end up we din watch 2012 coz even signature also full house. If really wanna watch, we hav to wait till 6pm. I refuse becoz at night i wanna do my assignment and hand up to my fren before sunday.

 

Luckily nothing much happened in MV and Gardens, just i fail to watch 2012. All the day i'm thinking how to fix my laptop. I think format is the best solution..maybe?! After "walking" around the MV and Gardens, we leave at 5pm. The rain is heavy, but at least we not taking public transport. I starts to begin my "format" job when i reached home. And i tried my very best to fix it but i think i make it more worst this time! The file has gone, but the system stil the same, and i now hung at there i hav no solution to recover it. It takes alot my time. I postpone my dinner coz i really hav no mood to eat before i get my things done. I knew i cant do anything anymore,i take bath to calm down myself.

 

Guys, you know what happened on me coming up next? my spec's screw loosen n it becum 2 pieces. argh.... wat happened on me today?? cant watch battleground, laptop malfunction, cant watch 2012, spec spoilt, assignment not done!  end up, i din get anything today, only hurts me alot alot! now i'm having gastric~ even after i drank the apple aloe vera drinks i suddenly saw some ant climbing around the cup, maybe i had "drink" some ants into my abdomen....

 

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!!

 

I MUST WATCH 2012 in this few days after i get my assignment done and before going back kampar!!!!

(i wish to..........)

 

but AT LEAST 1 thing makes me happy is...

I watched Elecoldxhot dance!! wow!!!! They really CHARM!!! n pretty YENG lo!!!

hahaha!!! GOOD JOB ECX!!! =)

TMD (請原諒我的粗俗!! 因爲我原本要打完的部落不懂發生什麽事突然整個關閉了!!)

 

啊~~~~~~
我很多東西做啊!!

 

我的道德怎麽讀來讀就是讀不明啊!??!
老師教醬久我就懵醬久!

你叫我這拜四怎麽考試??!?

誰可以救我啊!?!?!

 

Assignment永遠是我的弱點!
我從來就不曾認識它是誰...
我縂拿它沒辦法...

而且現在還要打孖上!
而且死期都是下個禮拜!!

一個禮拜的時間....(雖然那道題目是在幾個禮拜前的事..)

人縂愛臨時抱佛腳的..

慘了慘了慘了...

 

我的淡米爾文生字還沒寫啊....

我討厭我的講師!!! 可是我喜歡我的tutor...

 

我很怕啊..
那麽多東西做..
我怕全部會做得一塌糊塗..

爲什麽那些人可以那麽輕鬆???

明明他們做的東西跟我一樣..
他們不擔心的嗎?

可是我又不覺得我過於瞻前顧後...

 

我的腦除了煩這些東西..

還不時浮現我最近玩的玩意兒!

那就是衆所周知rubik cube!!

雖然它已經是對有些人來説過時了..

玩到不想再玩..

可是我可以瘋狂到我的腦一直在想着它..

一定要轉它幾下才爽..

我日日夜夜都想着它..

就連看歌詞我都看見那行字在轉..

看到某個景色也在轉..

腦海裏也想着怎麽轉..

一合眼我都會看到那五顔六色的方塊!!

哈哈..

我終于成功了..

雖然我還沒到達兩分鐘能完成的境界..

但至少我能完成它..開心!!

我又學到了新的東西!!

 

不過怎麽開心都開心不過我這個禮拜回家!!

原因不在我可以回家..

而是我可以回家看我瘋狂的Battleground 舞極限!!!

上個星期錯過了真是氣死氣死氣死我了!!!

原本還很期待可以透過視像觀看的..

怎麽知道我姐的電腦好壞不壞!!

在我要看的前兩個鈡被雷劈爛了!!!!!!

害我錯過了我老婆仔的跳舞!!!

不過好彩我沒錯過我最愛的ECX!!!

 

這屆的競爭好強!!!

Elecoldxhot和Dancologist要加油!!

我還沒發掘到有強的隊伍..
等我回去看看有那隊能被我瘋狂的先啦!!!

哈哈哈!! 快點回家.. 我要霸電視!!!!

 

舞極限你要等我回來!!!

 

謝謝你陪伴了我那三個小時...

 

先前的兩個小時..

我了解你的不耐煩..

明白你的心情...

很感謝你很努力的幫我..

不時找人幫托..

顯得我自愧不如...

 

我的任性,我的自私,我的膽小,我的婆媽...

帶來了更多的麻煩給你...

我的失落,我的無言,我的心痛...

要你來陪我承受...

對不起...

 

你說得對..至少我做了我要做的東西..

盡力就好了...我沒有後悔..

我不怪任何人...

我只很感謝你願意犧牲陪伴我...

雖然結局是如此的... ^^"

(我很怕你的朋友會打我因爲我拉了你出來陪我你沒能做assignment~~)

"怕啥???" 那邊有人好奇地問道。

 

"不知道" 這是我的答案。

 

之前什麽都煩...

現在可以什麽都怕嗎??

 

班長告訴我:"你怕那是因爲你沒有自信.."

無可否認..

他已經不是第一人告訴我了..

我自己也覺得病情嚴重。

也許已經到了無可救藥的地步吧....

 

我很有想象力... 星座書說的。

以前我都不明白什麽意思...

我還以爲我有藝術人的頭腦可以創造出天馬行空的作品..

這倒奇怪..我根本不覺得我有什麽創造能力..更別説天馬行空的作品。

結果現在終于明白了那所謂的想象力是什麽意思了...

意思就是我的想象力倒是天馬行空..可以想出很多無謂白痴的擔心...

擔心人家會怪自己..擔心我自己會得罪人家..是不是人家生氣自己了呢..爲啥他對我那麽冷淡/熱情??

等等等等的....

結果到頭來還是得個桔..就是説我白擔心了一場。

 

你怕死嗎??

或許這個問題從不曾出現過在你的腦海...

我怕死...所以我從來沒有想過要結束我的一生..

很多朋友都曾聼過我說...

"我不要死啊!! 我還沒有拍過拖還沒嘗試過戀愛是什麽滋味..我還有很多東西還未做..~~" 類似這樣的話。

我公諸於世..如果告訴你我怕死的原因是因爲"我怕除了家人之外沒人會去哭墳"會覺得搞笑嗎??

以前我縂覺得自己是多餘的..每次覺得多我一個不多少我一個不少...

我的不存在根本不足以令任何人掛齒....

 

身邊雖然有她們這班很關心很義氣的朋友...

我沒要求她們關心我多一點也沒要她們做些什麽...

我知道我很像一只吊靴鬼一直煩着她們...

我不想我不想我真的不想!!!! 我真的很對不起很對不起她們..

很對不起我身邊的朋友們...

我不是有心的...我也很想像煒文惠彬那樣永遠沒人懂他們到底心裏在想什麽..

像她們那樣可以堅強地呈現在人的面前。

我不行....我的人就是什麽都在臉上...

我生氣我會黑臉

我傷心我會頽廢

我開心我會逗你

我煩惱我會駡人

這就是我... 我真的很努力地壓抑自己..

可是每一次都會失敗....

 

人比人真的會比死人..

而死的是自己。

我真的很介意人家比我好..

如果我的努力比人多而我得到的結果是少於人..

我是真的很介意...

可是這個我可以忍耐不爆發在人家面前...

因爲我技不如人。

所以我怕人家不看重我..也怕我讓別人失望。

那請問我怎麽做人??

 

怕完了嗎...

我暫時想不到了...

最怕的莫過於"失去"二字..

你們....會不會捨棄我???

這是我最怕的東西...比蟑螂還要怕。

 

很煩呐!!

"煩什麽??" 有人問

就煩咯! 很煩很煩....

什麽都煩咯!!

上課又煩、放學又煩、讀書又煩、朋友又煩、駕車又煩、吃飯又煩、回家又煩、睡覺也煩、買東西更煩..

總之什麽都煩..很煩就是了!!!!!!

 

煩爲什麽我的馬來文不可以好點??

煩爲什麽我的英文不可以再好一點??

煩爲什麽我的華文還是那麽差??

煩爲什麽我的日文比淡米爾文好??

煩爲什麽我的朋友了解我而我不了解他們??

煩爲什麽我的晚餐每天除了吃飯吃面吃粥吃包跟吃餅乾之外還能吃什麽??

煩爲什麽我的吉它彈來彈去還是那幾首歌??

煩爲什麽我的歌們越聼越鬱悶??

煩爲什麽我的滑鼠裏的電池一直沒電??

煩爲什麽我的臉會有雙下巴??

煩爲什麽我就是不懂要買什麽???

煩爲什麽我想要做的到最後都會泡湯??

煩爲什麽我那麽多東西煩??

煩爲什麽我的腦裏除了煩就不可以塞Pengajian am, Moral進去??

 

很煩啊!!!!

我現在該去睡還是該去讀書???

選擇睡沒讀書又不安心..

選擇讀又好像有少許的睡意..

選擇讀小説的話爲什麽不讀歷史呢??

 

明天的presentation...

我反而不煩...只是會下衰而已。